haven been updating for days... that is because my COM is down. stupid. hate this com of mine.. argh...

things can never be the same again. i know it and i think you can sense it too. no matter how hard we try to mend this friendship things can never be the same. i hate to say this, but it is true. the scars that we had inflicted on each other, the hurting words you've said, the betrayal, the trust, how you had once thought so lowly of me and the disappointment... all these have been the cause to the scar... you once said that it is my fault and you are giving up on me, I was angry... but more of disappointed... not only in you but myself too... i came to realize that how vulnerable our friendship is and how trustworthy i am too you... maybe it is my actions that has disappoint you... how can a friendship last if there is no trust in it? everytime i try to forgive and forget i just cant bring myself to think of what you have said to me that night. it might be words of anger, but... to me, it is still hurting... your words of anger have been flashing through my mind every now and then... i know... things will never be the same... i rather turned back in time and hope that none if these will happen rather than trying to mend it... you cant change certain things... you just cant...